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life is a lemon...
Nov. 15th, 2009 | 12:26 pm
had this song going round my head a bit the last couple of days.. just cause there are bit of life that suck utterly.
im just wondering what i need to be/have to do to be genuinely liked... and not used... because aside from a very few people whom i think fall into the second category, everyone else just takes what they can or want and leave me by the wayside. the fact that i allow it is a separate issue... but maybe thats why.. because i *do* allow it... gah. i dont know...
im comparing myself to everyone else again.. and it wont work. but equally i have nothing else to go on....
so onto more cheery topics... i havent posted for a little while. had my birthday and a couple of visitors over, which was a welcome change, and this weekend ive had my sister up for a few days. yesterday we went to the lumiere festival in durham.. here are some of the pictures i took there.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=12
have also agreed to help my friend alice out with a charity gig at the end of the month in huddersfield, which will see Ed and I performing together for the first time in well over a year... and have decided we shall henceforth be 'the distance between'
im just wondering what i need to be/have to do to be genuinely liked... and not used... because aside from a very few people whom i think fall into the second category, everyone else just takes what they can or want and leave me by the wayside. the fact that i allow it is a separate issue... but maybe thats why.. because i *do* allow it... gah. i dont know...
im comparing myself to everyone else again.. and it wont work. but equally i have nothing else to go on....
so onto more cheery topics... i havent posted for a little while. had my birthday and a couple of visitors over, which was a welcome change, and this weekend ive had my sister up for a few days. yesterday we went to the lumiere festival in durham.. here are some of the pictures i took there.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=12
have also agreed to help my friend alice out with a charity gig at the end of the month in huddersfield, which will see Ed and I performing together for the first time in well over a year... and have decided we shall henceforth be 'the distance between'
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my yummy soup
Nov. 11th, 2009 | 08:02 pm
ingredients:
3 large parsnips,
2 medium carrots,
1 LARGE white onion
5 cloves of garlic
salt
pepper
small pinch of curry spice according to taste.
vegetable stock to cover.
a few lentils
chop vegetables into chunks and place into pan, peel garlic and place into pan,
add vegetable stocl to jus covering veg and boil until veg is almost tender.
Add a few lentils to thicken when blended.
once lentils are cooked,
blend, and serve with fresh bread!
3 large parsnips,
2 medium carrots,
1 LARGE white onion
5 cloves of garlic
salt
pepper
small pinch of curry spice according to taste.
vegetable stock to cover.
a few lentils
chop vegetables into chunks and place into pan, peel garlic and place into pan,
add vegetable stocl to jus covering veg and boil until veg is almost tender.
Add a few lentils to thicken when blended.
once lentils are cooked,
blend, and serve with fresh bread!
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all we are is dust in the wind....
Nov. 3rd, 2009 | 08:25 am
after the horrendousness of saturday evening, things got a little better. this is in no small part down to the efforts of jack, ed and paul, who between them managed to calm me down enough and generally be there at a time i genuinely needed a friend. Paul came over to keep me company saturday night, and this helped immensely, as sunday morning i was therefore entirely distracted.. sunday afternoon i ventured out for coffee, and when i got back spoke to kergun for a while, and then determined not to fall too far behind, started the novel and went to bed.
Yesterday I was back at work, and I was exhausted. i was ready to fall over by 5 o clock! it didnt help as well that i had some truly awkward and difficult customers, and just wasnt in the headspace to deal with anyone shouting at me. so after getting home for 5.30pm mustve kinda spaced out because then it was 8pm, and then i decided i needed a bath in an effort to try and force my muscles to relax a little physically.. didnt lounge, had about 40 mins, but had my big fluffy bathrobe and towel waiting on the radiator when i got out, so was lovely and comfy cosy warm. realised though that brain to fuddled to really write much. as such i am quite far behind already. I will have time to catch up, but pushing myself right now is probably not the best idea.
this morning, a knock on the door got me out of bed. was the chap here to continue with my bathroom. im happy he's here, cause that means it will be done by the weekend, but today im having to leave him with my key, while i go to work. hes a lovely guy -he did the work before, but the control freak in me is not happy about not having my key and me not being there.. or at least someone else.
Yesterday I was back at work, and I was exhausted. i was ready to fall over by 5 o clock! it didnt help as well that i had some truly awkward and difficult customers, and just wasnt in the headspace to deal with anyone shouting at me. so after getting home for 5.30pm mustve kinda spaced out because then it was 8pm, and then i decided i needed a bath in an effort to try and force my muscles to relax a little physically.. didnt lounge, had about 40 mins, but had my big fluffy bathrobe and towel waiting on the radiator when i got out, so was lovely and comfy cosy warm. realised though that brain to fuddled to really write much. as such i am quite far behind already. I will have time to catch up, but pushing myself right now is probably not the best idea.
this morning, a knock on the door got me out of bed. was the chap here to continue with my bathroom. im happy he's here, cause that means it will be done by the weekend, but today im having to leave him with my key, while i go to work. hes a lovely guy -he did the work before, but the control freak in me is not happy about not having my key and me not being there.. or at least someone else.
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empty pizza boxes stacked up on a cushion
Oct. 31st, 2009 | 10:33 am
i didnt post yesterday because i was busy!
I set out to the doctors, which in itself was a somewhat surreal experience. Getting out was actually nice, and it was surprisingly warm. I knew i was going to request wearing my big beige jumper *and* my new coat within about 30 seconds... but nethertheless continued on. just as i was around the corner from the surgery, i got a text from jack who was a little early. as i signed in to be told by hte computerised screen there was an approximately 15 minute wait, i directed jack to me, and we rambled at one another until it was time to go in.
the doctor i saw was very like the headmistress in school of rock, in both looks (except blonde) and manner... she was actually quite nice, despite reprimanding me when i said there were three quick things , as "i should have considered booking a double appointment". i stuck to my ground though and explained that one was quite last minute, and basically work had asked for a doctors note, which id said i would relay. as expected she told me id need to self certify as 'that is why the system is there'
secnd thing i needed was to chase up my referral back to the surgeons. she rang receptionf or my paper notes, took one look at them, and said shed find out whether gastroenterologist or surgeon consultand would be quicker and get me on the list straight away. sounded like she knew where she was going... so that was also quick.
thirs and final thing was me handing over the letter from the psychotherapist, which she read, agreed a referral would be a good thing, but was unsure whether she be able to bypass the normal route or if id still have to see a primary care psychologist first.... she said shed find out and let me know, either by post or phone, so i am somewhat hopeful that things may get on. she did warn me theres a waiting list - which is the same across the country, so hopefully things wont get too bad in the meantime.
jack and i then wandered to asda, to collect beer and money. he had earlier declared that because i had done a good and brave thing that morning (id rung him, told him about the fact that something yves had said was messing with my head, and possibly going to cause problems, so just wanted to let him know the situation and potential pitfall) he was buying us food instead of cooking, which was lovely.
we picked up some goliath and fursty ferret ale from asgard, and ordered pizza hut for dinner. they are doing a really good virtuous veg pizza at the mo - so we got a stuffed crust and a cheesy bites one... and garlic bread and coleslaw.... perfectly set up for an evening of watching whose line is it anyway, modelling/painting and watching harry potter V at way too late a time (putting it on at close to midnight not the greatest idea)
It was a very pleasant chilled out evening with no pressure which was nice... this morning mooched a little, ate a little leftover pizza before jack disappeared for he has things to do... i then did the washing up, watched eragon, which now ive finished the book, think the film is not good at all....i didnt thinknit great to begin with.. but they missed so much out and could have made it so much better...,
and have been trying to get into writing mode ready for the start of NaNoWriMo tomorrow. i decided to stick with what i know so expect something fantastical and kinda young adulty to erupt... the assumptio that this means therell be a dragon in there has already been bandied about, and i cant promise for certain that there wont be, i dont see any need for one yet....
nanowrimo is going to be my project for november... trying to look at doing new things, and set myself challenges. it willn stop me being bored and lonely in the short term, and in the longer term may help me to work out things i actually enjoy doing...
speaking of the short term... in lieu of my birthday im having a mostly open house next weekend... given that <lj-user=ghostreign> is going to be up, and chris was debating it as well. paul and jack have both said they would come over but are unsure when, it means any plans are abandoned and things will be taken as they come... if anyone else fancies it, then let me know and illgive you more info.
I set out to the doctors, which in itself was a somewhat surreal experience. Getting out was actually nice, and it was surprisingly warm. I knew i was going to request wearing my big beige jumper *and* my new coat within about 30 seconds... but nethertheless continued on. just as i was around the corner from the surgery, i got a text from jack who was a little early. as i signed in to be told by hte computerised screen there was an approximately 15 minute wait, i directed jack to me, and we rambled at one another until it was time to go in.
the doctor i saw was very like the headmistress in school of rock, in both looks (except blonde) and manner... she was actually quite nice, despite reprimanding me when i said there were three quick things , as "i should have considered booking a double appointment". i stuck to my ground though and explained that one was quite last minute, and basically work had asked for a doctors note, which id said i would relay. as expected she told me id need to self certify as 'that is why the system is there'
secnd thing i needed was to chase up my referral back to the surgeons. she rang receptionf or my paper notes, took one look at them, and said shed find out whether gastroenterologist or surgeon consultand would be quicker and get me on the list straight away. sounded like she knew where she was going... so that was also quick.
thirs and final thing was me handing over the letter from the psychotherapist, which she read, agreed a referral would be a good thing, but was unsure whether she be able to bypass the normal route or if id still have to see a primary care psychologist first.... she said shed find out and let me know, either by post or phone, so i am somewhat hopeful that things may get on. she did warn me theres a waiting list - which is the same across the country, so hopefully things wont get too bad in the meantime.
jack and i then wandered to asda, to collect beer and money. he had earlier declared that because i had done a good and brave thing that morning (id rung him, told him about the fact that something yves had said was messing with my head, and possibly going to cause problems, so just wanted to let him know the situation and potential pitfall) he was buying us food instead of cooking, which was lovely.
we picked up some goliath and fursty ferret ale from asgard, and ordered pizza hut for dinner. they are doing a really good virtuous veg pizza at the mo - so we got a stuffed crust and a cheesy bites one... and garlic bread and coleslaw.... perfectly set up for an evening of watching whose line is it anyway, modelling/painting and watching harry potter V at way too late a time (putting it on at close to midnight not the greatest idea)
It was a very pleasant chilled out evening with no pressure which was nice... this morning mooched a little, ate a little leftover pizza before jack disappeared for he has things to do... i then did the washing up, watched eragon, which now ive finished the book, think the film is not good at all....i didnt thinknit great to begin with.. but they missed so much out and could have made it so much better...,
and have been trying to get into writing mode ready for the start of NaNoWriMo tomorrow. i decided to stick with what i know so expect something fantastical and kinda young adulty to erupt... the assumptio that this means therell be a dragon in there has already been bandied about, and i cant promise for certain that there wont be, i dont see any need for one yet....
nanowrimo is going to be my project for november... trying to look at doing new things, and set myself challenges. it willn stop me being bored and lonely in the short term, and in the longer term may help me to work out things i actually enjoy doing...
speaking of the short term... in lieu of my birthday im having a mostly open house next weekend... given that <lj-user=ghostreign> is going to be up, and chris was debating it as well. paul and jack have both said they would come over but are unsure when, it means any plans are abandoned and things will be taken as they come... if anyone else fancies it, then let me know and illgive you more info.
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autumn leaves.
Oct. 29th, 2009 | 11:19 pm
debated whether or not to f-lock this one or not... and ive opted not to..
tomorrow im going to the doctors to take the recommendation from my psychotherapist for longer term treatment. im bad and should have done it some time ago but i got it just before i was off work for two weeks on hols, and i went home and then i was sorting stuff out, and then things went shit, and i just didnt get around to it.. but given how the last couple of weeks have been, and the new challenges im facing its a really good idea. to get it moving.. despite being somewhat scared.
ill also be asking if i can get a sicknote to cover the time off work ive had this week.. i can self certify, but theyve asked so ill see. not going to fret too much about that though...
did a bit more from the book that the psychotherapist recommended to me today... got stuck at setting goals for myself and how i measure whether im achieving them... coincidentally a lot of ex flatmates rather pointed comments this evening (he'd dropped by to pick up some stuff) were along those lines too - that and a whole rant over how nobody actually likes me and people only spend time with me out of pity.. which made me go wtf some... but yet again made me doubt everything... because in an effort to be a bit more open minded i have to consider the prospect that he's right... jack is coming over tomorrow... and its going to make for an uncomfortable evening because thats going to be nagging at me the whole time... and it would be the sime for whoever the nect person would be...
on the downside i also feel quite bad because when im stressed or agitated and in certain other situations i tend to do something with my hands... it varies as to what, but its a slight ocd type thing... if its bad then ill start rubbing or sqeezing my arm or something. mostly i catch it and either change it to something else or stop it... today i missed it entierly and as a result ihave something akin to carpet burn on the inside of my wrist... im mad at myself for not picking up on it...
tomorrow im going to the doctors to take the recommendation from my psychotherapist for longer term treatment. im bad and should have done it some time ago but i got it just before i was off work for two weeks on hols, and i went home and then i was sorting stuff out, and then things went shit, and i just didnt get around to it.. but given how the last couple of weeks have been, and the new challenges im facing its a really good idea. to get it moving.. despite being somewhat scared.
ill also be asking if i can get a sicknote to cover the time off work ive had this week.. i can self certify, but theyve asked so ill see. not going to fret too much about that though...
did a bit more from the book that the psychotherapist recommended to me today... got stuck at setting goals for myself and how i measure whether im achieving them... coincidentally a lot of ex flatmates rather pointed comments this evening (he'd dropped by to pick up some stuff) were along those lines too - that and a whole rant over how nobody actually likes me and people only spend time with me out of pity.. which made me go wtf some... but yet again made me doubt everything... because in an effort to be a bit more open minded i have to consider the prospect that he's right... jack is coming over tomorrow... and its going to make for an uncomfortable evening because thats going to be nagging at me the whole time... and it would be the sime for whoever the nect person would be...
on the downside i also feel quite bad because when im stressed or agitated and in certain other situations i tend to do something with my hands... it varies as to what, but its a slight ocd type thing... if its bad then ill start rubbing or sqeezing my arm or something. mostly i catch it and either change it to something else or stop it... today i missed it entierly and as a result ihave something akin to carpet burn on the inside of my wrist... im mad at myself for not picking up on it...
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broken.
Oct. 28th, 2009 | 01:21 pm
i got a bit of sleep.... enough to live on anyhow... and ive tidied the lounge and hoovered and mopped that and the bathroom.
The lounge feels big and empty and impersonal now... its a change, and it will get better i know that.
through all the crap in the last week ive been holding on to the fact that jack and i had agreed a painting day/night this weekend...
might sound quite trivial but when we get to do them it involves food, (sometimes beer) conversation, and is much more than just painting minatures... its a full occasion. its escapism and its paradoxically also a really good way of whatever the opposite of escapism would be...
(really bad sentence there that makes not a lot of sense i know.. :S)
the fact we dont get to do them often at all makes them all the more special, so when i find out that its rainchecked its just about finished me off. its really knocked me for six. thats all ill say really.
i know that something more important willhave come up so im not mad.... just broken.
im now wondering if the whole going back to blogging was actually a good idea... im tryign to find good things to post about as well as whats happening... and i was hopign for some sense of catharsis to come from it.. but so far not yet... but its been less than a week. i dont want to be defeated that easily.
The lounge feels big and empty and impersonal now... its a change, and it will get better i know that.
through all the crap in the last week ive been holding on to the fact that jack and i had agreed a painting day/night this weekend...
might sound quite trivial but when we get to do them it involves food, (sometimes beer) conversation, and is much more than just painting minatures... its a full occasion. its escapism and its paradoxically also a really good way of whatever the opposite of escapism would be...
(really bad sentence there that makes not a lot of sense i know.. :S)
the fact we dont get to do them often at all makes them all the more special, so when i find out that its rainchecked its just about finished me off. its really knocked me for six. thats all ill say really.
i know that something more important willhave come up so im not mad.... just broken.
im now wondering if the whole going back to blogging was actually a good idea... im tryign to find good things to post about as well as whats happening... and i was hopign for some sense of catharsis to come from it.. but so far not yet... but its been less than a week. i dont want to be defeated that easily.
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ambivolence
Oct. 28th, 2009 | 01:32 am
its way too late... i know that. sleeping 14 hours - over double what i would normally sleep has messed with my body clock... am just going with it.
its one thirty am. im looking at my living room and it seems really empty. the boxes have gone. in fact all traces of flatmate have gone from the living room and the bathroom, and most of the kitchen. the flat now feels really empty.
i know that this is right and that ultimately i need to be on my own for oh so many reasons, but it doesnt mean im not ambivolent about it...
im still going to miss flatmate.. i will regret the times ive treated him like crap even though he's made my life hell in some ways...
ill always worry that maybe he was right and that i have thrown the help he tried to offer back in his face... even if i dont see how ive done it.
having spent most of my day dozing on the sofa to films and trying to tweak pc a little actually had a relatively ok evenng with him around... then i made a throwaway comment about 'the saint' being a bit crap as a film version - which we had 'a conversation' about... which then degenerated into yet another conversation about how i dont want to make anything better and im really actually only happy torturing myself because if i wasnt i would stop being in denial and just enjoy life, or alternatively i would change things so they reflect what i want... but i have all of the answers already so its all up to me.... my admitting my lack of understanding and how to actually go about this is all also a part of my denial apparently... left me feeling pretty crappy..... but what if he is right... ? theres this whole opposite thing going on which i dont understand... how can i be telling myself im thinking one thing when actually im thinking another without knowing it?
i guess thats why im seeing a head doctor.....
its just a shame that it's come too late to salvage anything here. i know some people who know said flatmate would say that its no great loss, and that im better off without him anyhow... but that doesnt chang ethe fact that i do appreciate the effort he's made to try to help....
feel very small, lost and confused right now... so many questions and no answers i can see.
on the plus side though i have just about got my world of warcraft account sorted after it got hacked and merged to a battlenet account about a year ago. sorting out patches, but with any luck i might even get stuff back thats gone...
its one thirty am. im looking at my living room and it seems really empty. the boxes have gone. in fact all traces of flatmate have gone from the living room and the bathroom, and most of the kitchen. the flat now feels really empty.
i know that this is right and that ultimately i need to be on my own for oh so many reasons, but it doesnt mean im not ambivolent about it...
im still going to miss flatmate.. i will regret the times ive treated him like crap even though he's made my life hell in some ways...
ill always worry that maybe he was right and that i have thrown the help he tried to offer back in his face... even if i dont see how ive done it.
having spent most of my day dozing on the sofa to films and trying to tweak pc a little actually had a relatively ok evenng with him around... then i made a throwaway comment about 'the saint' being a bit crap as a film version - which we had 'a conversation' about... which then degenerated into yet another conversation about how i dont want to make anything better and im really actually only happy torturing myself because if i wasnt i would stop being in denial and just enjoy life, or alternatively i would change things so they reflect what i want... but i have all of the answers already so its all up to me.... my admitting my lack of understanding and how to actually go about this is all also a part of my denial apparently... left me feeling pretty crappy..... but what if he is right... ? theres this whole opposite thing going on which i dont understand... how can i be telling myself im thinking one thing when actually im thinking another without knowing it?
i guess thats why im seeing a head doctor.....
its just a shame that it's come too late to salvage anything here. i know some people who know said flatmate would say that its no great loss, and that im better off without him anyhow... but that doesnt chang ethe fact that i do appreciate the effort he's made to try to help....
feel very small, lost and confused right now... so many questions and no answers i can see.
on the plus side though i have just about got my world of warcraft account sorted after it got hacked and merged to a battlenet account about a year ago. sorting out patches, but with any luck i might even get stuff back thats gone...
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we are.. we are.. the youth of the nation
Oct. 27th, 2009 | 08:08 am
in here... !
Im going to be tidying this morning.... as opposed to at work. this is because after a somewhat horrendous day yesterday...
things going wrong with machinery at work, finding out that the person id been kind of seeing had met someone else (it wasnt anything serious but it still plays to my insecurities) getting out of work at lunchtime, and going home, only to find flatmate returns and another argument ensues. had aheadache all day and felt like i was coming down with something...
walked home the long way as i wanted to avoid confrontation for as long as possible. got back to empty house but just hid...
then realised i had a bunch of blisters across my face where a lot of the pains an aches id had were...
so yeah. shingles. and because its on my face and neck. i have to stay off work...
the flat is a tip. some of it ill have to leave for now and deal with when im on my own.. but for now i can at least pick up the empty bottles etc(not necessarily mine) and make a start. just need to try and take it easy
Im going to be tidying this morning.... as opposed to at work. this is because after a somewhat horrendous day yesterday...
things going wrong with machinery at work, finding out that the person id been kind of seeing had met someone else (it wasnt anything serious but it still plays to my insecurities) getting out of work at lunchtime, and going home, only to find flatmate returns and another argument ensues. had aheadache all day and felt like i was coming down with something...
walked home the long way as i wanted to avoid confrontation for as long as possible. got back to empty house but just hid...
then realised i had a bunch of blisters across my face where a lot of the pains an aches id had were...
so yeah. shingles. and because its on my face and neck. i have to stay off work...
the flat is a tip. some of it ill have to leave for now and deal with when im on my own.. but for now i can at least pick up the empty bottles etc(not necessarily mine) and make a start. just need to try and take it easy
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i should be in bed...
Oct. 26th, 2009 | 12:26 am
as its really one thirty am.... am still up because i refuse to go to bed worked up...
and im goign to break an agreement here but i dont care. my very soon to be ex-flatmate asked me to not mention him in blog posts or the like... and i have respected that 99% of the time - the other one % being things which would have made no sense had i not mentioned him.
yves and i were good friends to begin with. over the last year that has deteriorated into a whole pile of crap, for which we are both responsible.... i feel more responsible than i am for how things have turned out but i cant deny my part in this. ive taken his presence for granted and he's ended up bearing the brunt of a lot of the crap going around my head. he in turn has not been very understanding about the situation ive been in over the last year... im not going to bitch about all the ins and outs.. i shall leave it there... but after what has been a good weekend - one where ive actually felt pretty ok, done things i have enjoyed and not been too stressed about anything, i got back after my walk, and yves decided he was going to offer helpful advice. ....this is his way of pointing out my flaws and telling me what i do wrong, but i ahve no option to actually discuss how i dont see it that way, or to talk it through to understand why i do it... so in retrospect, its not helpful just leaves me feeling like shit and beating myself up. him knowing that doesnt stop him though....
so this evening he baited me and i rose to it... im angry at myself for having reacted to it.... but hoping i can learn something from it. still im trying not to let it cast a shadow over my weekend... and despite the crap, i will miss having someone around to say hello to when i get in...
life is going to be very different very soon and i hope that i will be able to adapt.
in other news..
i bashed my hand last night ont he way to bed.. got a huge lump coming up straight away on it, so stuck some ice on it. which has helped but im still left with a lump and a lovely bruise forming. would not like to think about what it would look like if i hadnt iced it...
havent dared check my ankle yet from saturday either... twisted it and got it caught in a step (dont ask) and the twist is fine but i know its bruised as well...
injuries aside...
revamped the myspace as well.. put most of the ep up on there and am generally looking to do somethign with it. tryign to inject a bit of life into the facebook group as well... there may or may not be something coming... partly depends on how things go once yves is gone...
so this next week is going to be a bit more upheaval but at the weekend if all goes to plan will ahve a friend over for a game of warhammer 40k. this may well mean my evenings will be spent painting this week... there are worse things i could be doing i suppose!
and with that.. i think to bed i must go.
and im goign to break an agreement here but i dont care. my very soon to be ex-flatmate asked me to not mention him in blog posts or the like... and i have respected that 99% of the time - the other one % being things which would have made no sense had i not mentioned him.
yves and i were good friends to begin with. over the last year that has deteriorated into a whole pile of crap, for which we are both responsible.... i feel more responsible than i am for how things have turned out but i cant deny my part in this. ive taken his presence for granted and he's ended up bearing the brunt of a lot of the crap going around my head. he in turn has not been very understanding about the situation ive been in over the last year... im not going to bitch about all the ins and outs.. i shall leave it there... but after what has been a good weekend - one where ive actually felt pretty ok, done things i have enjoyed and not been too stressed about anything, i got back after my walk, and yves decided he was going to offer helpful advice. ....this is his way of pointing out my flaws and telling me what i do wrong, but i ahve no option to actually discuss how i dont see it that way, or to talk it through to understand why i do it... so in retrospect, its not helpful just leaves me feeling like shit and beating myself up. him knowing that doesnt stop him though....
so this evening he baited me and i rose to it... im angry at myself for having reacted to it.... but hoping i can learn something from it. still im trying not to let it cast a shadow over my weekend... and despite the crap, i will miss having someone around to say hello to when i get in...
life is going to be very different very soon and i hope that i will be able to adapt.
in other news..
i bashed my hand last night ont he way to bed.. got a huge lump coming up straight away on it, so stuck some ice on it. which has helped but im still left with a lump and a lovely bruise forming. would not like to think about what it would look like if i hadnt iced it...
havent dared check my ankle yet from saturday either... twisted it and got it caught in a step (dont ask) and the twist is fine but i know its bruised as well...
injuries aside...
revamped the myspace as well.. put most of the ep up on there and am generally looking to do somethign with it. tryign to inject a bit of life into the facebook group as well... there may or may not be something coming... partly depends on how things go once yves is gone...
so this next week is going to be a bit more upheaval but at the weekend if all goes to plan will ahve a friend over for a game of warhammer 40k. this may well mean my evenings will be spent painting this week... there are worse things i could be doing i suppose!
and with that.. i think to bed i must go.
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psyched!
Oct. 25th, 2009 | 05:35 pm
location: on the sofa.
music: watching police academy III
ok, so this has to be a first... sara blogging about clothing... !!!
ive just blown this months food budget on a coat... this is not so good, however its a necessity, not a luxury, and i love it so i actually dont care.. it cost me 30 quid, which is probably the most ive spent on clothing in a long time.
so its a midlength woollen coat with a little bit of flare out on it, double breasted and bright red. i will post a photo at some point but right now i cannot.
The fact its red is a big thing as well, because ive had a fear of wearing red ever since i was considerably younger and a picture was taken of me in a hideous pillar box red track suit.... nuff said eh?
went and tested it with a long walk along the beach home, and its certainly windproof! got to see alovely sunset as well so all in all a very positive afternoon... well needed and very welcome!
this evening im treating myself to steak and then i shall be veggie until further notice. just need to make sure i have some lentils in to make soup so i dont get too anaemic.... stupid blood.
on the downside, ive lost my bounce CD - i actually really like it as a bon jovi album goes, and i know im not in the popular opinion there, but i dont care... its going on the amazon wishlist as well as the other stuff.... to be honest though id settle for my fridge and freezer being well stocked int he run up to christmas as a great birthday gift.... i am owed a bit of bills money from flatmate though so that will help and may leave me in not so quite dire straits... tomorrow ill double check all the finances.. should squeeze by alright i think.
ive just blown this months food budget on a coat... this is not so good, however its a necessity, not a luxury, and i love it so i actually dont care.. it cost me 30 quid, which is probably the most ive spent on clothing in a long time.
so its a midlength woollen coat with a little bit of flare out on it, double breasted and bright red. i will post a photo at some point but right now i cannot.
The fact its red is a big thing as well, because ive had a fear of wearing red ever since i was considerably younger and a picture was taken of me in a hideous pillar box red track suit.... nuff said eh?
went and tested it with a long walk along the beach home, and its certainly windproof! got to see alovely sunset as well so all in all a very positive afternoon... well needed and very welcome!
this evening im treating myself to steak and then i shall be veggie until further notice. just need to make sure i have some lentils in to make soup so i dont get too anaemic.... stupid blood.
on the downside, ive lost my bounce CD - i actually really like it as a bon jovi album goes, and i know im not in the popular opinion there, but i dont care... its going on the amazon wishlist as well as the other stuff.... to be honest though id settle for my fridge and freezer being well stocked int he run up to christmas as a great birthday gift.... i am owed a bit of bills money from flatmate though so that will help and may leave me in not so quite dire straits... tomorrow ill double check all the finances.. should squeeze by alright i think.
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Oct. 25th, 2009 | 01:36 pm
forgive me livejournal, for i have sinned. i have not updated as often as i should... i ditched you in favour of facebook...
i tend to have trouble posting because i think i lack things to post about.. or i leave it so long that i cant possibly list evedryting...
so im goign to try a new tack. a brief update on the big things and then thats that. anything gone before is gone.
im told i worry too much about everythign and dwell on things i can't change anyhow.. so lets try something different..
the BIG things.
i now officially have short hair... like almost a bob, but not a bob.... for anyone knowing me, this is actually a BIG thing. ive had long hair FOREVER, but i do quite like it... also enjoying the whole going to a hairdresser thing. im quite competent when it comes to cutting hair, but just cannot be arsed when it comes to my own, but im trying to take a bit more care of myself so thats where that coes in.
Myflatmate is actually moving out. Things have been somewhat tempestuous over the last year and a bit, and im pretty sure that as honourable as his intentions may or may not have been, he's hindered things just as much as he has helped... that said, i will miss him. there have been some fun times and i do feel like ive messed up a chance of gaining a pretty darned good friend... but equally, as he rightly says, i have to get on with things, so i shall try...
workwise, i started a new job now a month ago, and im loving being in one place, have really good people to work with, and can walk to work, so hopefully will work out to being able to save a little money over the long term.
so yeah... finances. these are, if im entirely honest, pretty dire. for things to be working i need another £50 quid a month in... as at present, priority goes bills, debt, and then if theres anything left then food... there is always something left, its just whether it's 10 quid or 40 quid... so i get veg and meat when i can afford it and live off pasta and rice when i can't... if i am really strict however then obviously as debt goes down a little i get a little more disposable income... and any extra chinks of money to go on making that happen. New job means the possibility of a bonus on occasion so throwing that onto chucks of debt is a step in the right direction....
other than that, been thinking a lot about the big questions of life... things i tend to shy away from... but really shouldbe thinking about...
so overall... lots of taking stock of things and working out where i go from here....so there is my catch up update... hopefully now, will get back into the swing of blogging again...
oh and have entered nanowrimo this year.... chris and i plan to spur one another on.. so that could be an interesting challenge and quite fun. too. been planning to do it for a while now, so finally getting round to it.... 50000 word novel HO!!!!!
i tend to have trouble posting because i think i lack things to post about.. or i leave it so long that i cant possibly list evedryting...
so im goign to try a new tack. a brief update on the big things and then thats that. anything gone before is gone.
im told i worry too much about everythign and dwell on things i can't change anyhow.. so lets try something different..
the BIG things.
i now officially have short hair... like almost a bob, but not a bob.... for anyone knowing me, this is actually a BIG thing. ive had long hair FOREVER, but i do quite like it... also enjoying the whole going to a hairdresser thing. im quite competent when it comes to cutting hair, but just cannot be arsed when it comes to my own, but im trying to take a bit more care of myself so thats where that coes in.
Myflatmate is actually moving out. Things have been somewhat tempestuous over the last year and a bit, and im pretty sure that as honourable as his intentions may or may not have been, he's hindered things just as much as he has helped... that said, i will miss him. there have been some fun times and i do feel like ive messed up a chance of gaining a pretty darned good friend... but equally, as he rightly says, i have to get on with things, so i shall try...
workwise, i started a new job now a month ago, and im loving being in one place, have really good people to work with, and can walk to work, so hopefully will work out to being able to save a little money over the long term.
so yeah... finances. these are, if im entirely honest, pretty dire. for things to be working i need another £50 quid a month in... as at present, priority goes bills, debt, and then if theres anything left then food... there is always something left, its just whether it's 10 quid or 40 quid... so i get veg and meat when i can afford it and live off pasta and rice when i can't... if i am really strict however then obviously as debt goes down a little i get a little more disposable income... and any extra chinks of money to go on making that happen. New job means the possibility of a bonus on occasion so throwing that onto chucks of debt is a step in the right direction....
other than that, been thinking a lot about the big questions of life... things i tend to shy away from... but really shouldbe thinking about...
so overall... lots of taking stock of things and working out where i go from here....so there is my catch up update... hopefully now, will get back into the swing of blogging again...
oh and have entered nanowrimo this year.... chris and i plan to spur one another on.. so that could be an interesting challenge and quite fun. too. been planning to do it for a while now, so finally getting round to it.... 50000 word novel HO!!!!!
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its been a heck of a long time...
Sep. 3rd, 2009 | 05:25 pm
its hard to believe that ive been up here for over a year now. It seems to have gone so quickly, but it's also feeling as if ive been here a lot longer...
Life is different. I don't have a bunch of people whom i call friends anymore, and can rely on. There are people who will always be in my 'inner circle' wherever they are, and whatever happens, but on a day to day basis.... ? nope. Instead of how i envisaged my coping with this however, im actually better off than i thought.
I have a stretch of beach i can call mine, because i live literally 5 mins walk away... 15 mins and im on wild cliffs. 15 mins the other way and im in the town centre, which has its own pace and lifestyle. I haven't been out for a night out there but i certainly will sometime.
I'm finally beginning to get to grips with some of the things which have plagued me for, if im honest, a lot longer than i care to admit to, but leaving everything behind exposed and laid bare. I havent been able to do it alone, and i still have a long way to go - my therapist is recommending me for longer term treatment, but at least im going in the right direction, even if things sometimes feel as if they are just getting worse and worse.
I do have a social life of sorts, there are a couple of girls at work im friendly with and time and circumstances permitting we do try and do stuff.. im not entirely on my own, which is nice in itself. Life is more peaceful, the pace a little more sedate, making me realise, in turn just how frantic things had become. As a result, I'm generally a little calmer and more at ease than i was.. and often the thing stressing me out now is just how stressed out i am naturally... which is something i am trying to address.
Work has been hard. The politics proving too much. So i successfully managed to go back into full retail (actually the job i used to do before they split the branches) its already been said, that they're taking a punt on me and i need to be able to deliver, but now im at least going to be away from my current line manager who has been making things very difficult... so this should also be addressed soon. I start on the 28th sept, after my two weeks annual leave.
My plans for my holiday are not many. I shall be back in sheffield for a few days at the start, and i shall probably go to durham for a day, and maybe up to alnwick or berwick, cash permitting. lindesfarne i think will have to wait till next spring now.... im saving up money - too much debt, and i want to try and get some paid off. new job will help a little, as i can walk to work, which will save me some money each month.
I think the hardest thing at the moment is the feeling that im in limbo. I'm not the same person i was a year ago.. but i dont know what im going towards either, but i dont feel i can start going forwards until i know where im going. It doesnt make a lot of sense, but it bugs me. another thing that doesnt help my stress levels....
I suck utterly at having faith in anything..
I know that this is a bit of rambley post... i havent really updated in a long time. I haven't felt able and i dont feel as if ive had much to say... equally i don't feel anyone is listening either. I know that that isnt necessarily the case and it shouldnt matter, because i should be writing for my benefit but somewhere it does impact.... I need to get into the habit of getting whats in my head out though if i want to look at going further forwards though.....
so yeah... ill be in sheffield 13-16th inclusive. i have a couple of things planned but if anyone does fancy meeting up for a coffee or whatever then give me a shout and im sure that we can sort something out... or you could come join me at the Soul Shredder gig on the wednesday evening....
Life is different. I don't have a bunch of people whom i call friends anymore, and can rely on. There are people who will always be in my 'inner circle' wherever they are, and whatever happens, but on a day to day basis.... ? nope. Instead of how i envisaged my coping with this however, im actually better off than i thought.
I have a stretch of beach i can call mine, because i live literally 5 mins walk away... 15 mins and im on wild cliffs. 15 mins the other way and im in the town centre, which has its own pace and lifestyle. I haven't been out for a night out there but i certainly will sometime.
I'm finally beginning to get to grips with some of the things which have plagued me for, if im honest, a lot longer than i care to admit to, but leaving everything behind exposed and laid bare. I havent been able to do it alone, and i still have a long way to go - my therapist is recommending me for longer term treatment, but at least im going in the right direction, even if things sometimes feel as if they are just getting worse and worse.
I do have a social life of sorts, there are a couple of girls at work im friendly with and time and circumstances permitting we do try and do stuff.. im not entirely on my own, which is nice in itself. Life is more peaceful, the pace a little more sedate, making me realise, in turn just how frantic things had become. As a result, I'm generally a little calmer and more at ease than i was.. and often the thing stressing me out now is just how stressed out i am naturally... which is something i am trying to address.
Work has been hard. The politics proving too much. So i successfully managed to go back into full retail (actually the job i used to do before they split the branches) its already been said, that they're taking a punt on me and i need to be able to deliver, but now im at least going to be away from my current line manager who has been making things very difficult... so this should also be addressed soon. I start on the 28th sept, after my two weeks annual leave.
My plans for my holiday are not many. I shall be back in sheffield for a few days at the start, and i shall probably go to durham for a day, and maybe up to alnwick or berwick, cash permitting. lindesfarne i think will have to wait till next spring now.... im saving up money - too much debt, and i want to try and get some paid off. new job will help a little, as i can walk to work, which will save me some money each month.
I think the hardest thing at the moment is the feeling that im in limbo. I'm not the same person i was a year ago.. but i dont know what im going towards either, but i dont feel i can start going forwards until i know where im going. It doesnt make a lot of sense, but it bugs me. another thing that doesnt help my stress levels....
I suck utterly at having faith in anything..
I know that this is a bit of rambley post... i havent really updated in a long time. I haven't felt able and i dont feel as if ive had much to say... equally i don't feel anyone is listening either. I know that that isnt necessarily the case and it shouldnt matter, because i should be writing for my benefit but somewhere it does impact.... I need to get into the habit of getting whats in my head out though if i want to look at going further forwards though.....
so yeah... ill be in sheffield 13-16th inclusive. i have a couple of things planned but if anyone does fancy meeting up for a coffee or whatever then give me a shout and im sure that we can sort something out... or you could come join me at the Soul Shredder gig on the wednesday evening....
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something ive been sitting on...
Jul. 15th, 2009 | 12:22 am
cross posted from my facebook group...
Although the acoustic musings have been put on hold due to some geographic issues, Sara will be performing a one-off show back in Sheffield with Ed's band, Soul Shredder, at the Pomona on Ecclesall Road, on Saturday 1st August, kindly filling in for the regular lead vocalist who will be about 5000 miles away on the day of the gig!!
The occasion is the final of the 2009 Battle of the Bands competition, so anyone who fancies an evening of varied music from singer-songwriter, through indie, to progressive and heavy metal, will be welcomed with open doors and bar ;-)
Check out the event here: http://www.facebook.com/ev
Hope to see you all there!
Ed
I'd love to see people there if possible... can promise it will be a good night... !
plus with there being 8 bands, there will be time for a natter too!
sara
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its been a long time i know...
Jul. 12th, 2009 | 02:58 am
but i thought i would post on here.... its 3am, and i should be going to bed - i should have been in bed three hours ago, but bbc would put armageddon on at 11pm... a film i had not, until tonight seen.....
i havent updated on here because ive had not a lot to say....
i could have listed the gigs ive been to, some booked over 6 months in advance...
i could talk about how crappy it is to be on my own up here..
i could talk about the failed semi-relationship ive had that turned out well, and i dont at all regret..
or the fact that ive been seeing a therapist for a couple of months now... in an effort to try and sort the minefield that is my head out...
ive tried different kinds of fish, discovered ive grown out of my allergy to shellfish, am saving up for a new guitar slowly, been on the receiving end of a blow or two, made cakes, and bread, and scones.... gotten fed up of my dvd collection... read books, started a new warhammer army... and lot more besides...
id love to wrrite an indepth post, about all of these things, and more...
but something is stopping me....
im hoping however that by breaking the silence maybe ill be able to write something meaningful and interesting in here soon.
hoping all is well with you.
sara
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for those wondering..
Apr. 6th, 2009 | 06:37 pm
i am still alive...
and kicking ;)
going to be in sheffield this weekend...
if anyone is going to the SOUL SHREDDER gig then i shall see you there :)
if not then i have a little space but im not the most flexible so it will be a case of if we can make something fit!
sara
and kicking ;)
going to be in sheffield this weekend...
if anyone is going to the SOUL SHREDDER gig then i shall see you there :)
if not then i have a little space but im not the most flexible so it will be a case of if we can make something fit!
sara
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week in review.
Jan. 9th, 2009 | 11:27 pm
so this week ive been off work...
it's been spent actually having time off and relaxing - something i didn't particularly get to do over christmas new year due to being ill... so this was goodly.
haven't spent too much money aside from something i shall talk about in a while...
so this week has seen a couple of firsts... first fully finished squad for 40k... have a shiny new beserker squad for my chaos - which im muchly looking forwards to using in a battle someday soon - my army is now at 2000 points- well 1999 if you want to be precise... will be definately looking forwards to playing with these guys.. :) (yves wishes me to point out that whilst *i *will enjoy playing with these guys... noone else will especially enjoy meeting them.... )
The other first would be frostbite... and i mean frostbite... not chill blains...
Walking back from asgard to the flat - 10 minute walk without gloves... had proper chill blains, so cold it was burning, and the thawing was absolute agony... couple of days later im thinking must have trapped finger in somethign as its rather swollen and blistered... theres no infection and its quite painful... so yeah... its going to be a while till its recovered.....
finally made good on my promise of a bottle of absinthe for my birthday, which was opened last night, and made good..... certainly didn't finish the bottle, but enjoyed it nonetheless... :D
today however...today... i got a new shiny thing...
kindly purchased by mr yves in lieu of some monies owed.. i present the following...
"The double-bound alder body and multi-ply pickguard that dressed up the ’62 Telecaster guitar distinguished it from its Butterscotch predecessor. And rosewood, originally introduced for cosmetic reasons because maple was prone to showing wear, quickly grew in popularity with the warmth it added to the classic Telecaster tone. "
so yeah i have a kinda custom electric guitar... and it's red!
... and you all thought i was going to post a pic of my finger... ;) maybe next time..
ooooh yeah... and saw a FANTABULOUS shooting star this evening whilst waiting for the ferry :D
it's been spent actually having time off and relaxing - something i didn't particularly get to do over christmas new year due to being ill... so this was goodly.
haven't spent too much money aside from something i shall talk about in a while...
so this week has seen a couple of firsts... first fully finished squad for 40k... have a shiny new beserker squad for my chaos - which im muchly looking forwards to using in a battle someday soon - my army is now at 2000 points- well 1999 if you want to be precise... will be definately looking forwards to playing with these guys.. :) (yves wishes me to point out that whilst *i *will enjoy playing with these guys... noone else will especially enjoy meeting them.... )
The other first would be frostbite... and i mean frostbite... not chill blains...
Walking back from asgard to the flat - 10 minute walk without gloves... had proper chill blains, so cold it was burning, and the thawing was absolute agony... couple of days later im thinking must have trapped finger in somethign as its rather swollen and blistered... theres no infection and its quite painful... so yeah... its going to be a while till its recovered.....
finally made good on my promise of a bottle of absinthe for my birthday, which was opened last night, and made good..... certainly didn't finish the bottle, but enjoyed it nonetheless... :D
today however...today... i got a new shiny thing...
kindly purchased by mr yves in lieu of some monies owed.. i present the following...
"The double-bound alder body and multi-ply pickguard that dressed up the ’62 Telecaster guitar distinguished it from its Butterscotch predecessor. And rosewood, originally introduced for cosmetic reasons because maple was prone to showing wear, quickly grew in popularity with the warmth it added to the classic Telecaster tone. "
so yeah i have a kinda custom electric guitar... and it's red!
... and you all thought i was going to post a pic of my finger... ;) maybe next time..
ooooh yeah... and saw a FANTABULOUS shooting star this evening whilst waiting for the ferry :D
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meme time
Dec. 27th, 2008 | 06:10 pm
waiting for food to cook... so.... that means meme time!
Aladdin (1992)
Alvin and the Chipmunks (2007)
Armageddon (1998)
Austin Powers 2: The Spy Who Shagged Me (1999)
Austin Powers in Goldmember (2002)
Back to the Future (1985)
Batman (1989)
Batman Begins (2005)
Beverly Hills Cop (1984)
Bourne Ultimatum (2007)
Bruce Almighty (2003)
Cars (2006)
Cast Away (2000)
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)
Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (2005)
Dark Knight (2008)
Da Vinci Code (2006)
Day After Tomorrow (2004)
Dr. Seuss' How the Grinch Stole Christmas (2000)
E. T. The Extra-Terrestrial (1982)
Exorcist (1973)
Finding Nemo (2003)
Forrest Gump (1994)
Ghost (1990)
Ghostbusters (1984)
Gladiator (2000)
Gone With the Wind (1939)
Hancock (2008)
Happy Feet (2006)
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (2002)
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (2005)
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (2007)
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (2004)
Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone (2001)
Home Alone (1990)
I Am Legend (2007)
Ice Age: The Meltdown (2006)
Incredibles (2004)
Independence Day (1996)
Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull (2008)
Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (1989)
Iron Man (2008)
Jaws (1975)
Jurassic Park (1993)
King Kong (2005)
Kung Fu Panda (2008)
Lion King (1994)
Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (2003)
Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)
Lost World: Jurassic Park (1997)
Madagascar (2005)
Matrix Reloaded (2003)
Meet the Fockers (2004)
Men in Black (1997)
Men in Black II (2002)
Mission: Impossible 2 (2000)
Monsters, Inc. (2001)
Mr. & Mrs. Smith (2005)
Mrs. Doubtfire (1993)
Mummy Returns (2001)
My Big Fat Greek Wedding (2002)
National Treasure: Book of Secrets (2007)
Night at the Museum (2006)
Passion of the Christ (2004)
Pearl Harbor (2001)
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End (2007)
Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest (2006)
Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (2003)
Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
Ratatouille (2007)
Rush Hour 2 (2001)
Saving Private Ryan (1998)
Shrek (2001)
Shrek 2 (2004)
Shrek the Third (2007)
Signs (2002)
Sixth Sense (1999)
Spider-Man (2002)
Spider-Man 2 (2004)
Spider-Man 3 (2007)
Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999)
Star Wars: Episode II - Attack of the Clones (2002)
Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith (2005)
Star Wars: Episode IV - A New Hope (1977)
Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
Star Wars: Episode VI - Return of the Jedi (1983)
Superman Returns (2006)
Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
Titanic (1997)
Toy Story (1995)
Toy Story 2 (1999)
Transformers (2007)
Twister (1996)
WALL·E (2008)
War of the Worlds (2005)
Wedding Crashers (2005)
X2: X-Men United (2003)
X-Men: The Last Stand (2006)
The 100 top grossing films of all time (not adjusted for inflation); bold what you've seen, underline what you own.
300 (2006)Aladdin (1992)
Alvin and the Chipmunks (2007)
Armageddon (1998)
Austin Powers 2: The Spy Who Shagged Me (1999)
Austin Powers in Goldmember (2002)
Back to the Future (1985)
Batman (1989)
Batman Begins (2005)
Beverly Hills Cop (1984)
Bourne Ultimatum (2007)
Bruce Almighty (2003)
Cars (2006)
Cast Away (2000)
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)
Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (2005)
Dark Knight (2008)
Da Vinci Code (2006)
Day After Tomorrow (2004)
Dr. Seuss' How the Grinch Stole Christmas (2000)
E. T. The Extra-Terrestrial (1982)
Exorcist (1973)
Finding Nemo (2003)
Forrest Gump (1994)
Ghost (1990)
Ghostbusters (1984)
Gladiator (2000)
Gone With the Wind (1939)
Hancock (2008)
Happy Feet (2006)
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (2002)
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (2005)
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (2007)
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (2004)
Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone (2001)
Home Alone (1990)
I Am Legend (2007)
Ice Age: The Meltdown (2006)
Incredibles (2004)
Independence Day (1996)
Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull (2008)
Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (1989)
Iron Man (2008)
Jaws (1975)
Jurassic Park (1993)
King Kong (2005)
Kung Fu Panda (2008)
Lion King (1994)
Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (2003)
Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)
Lost World: Jurassic Park (1997)
Madagascar (2005)
Matrix Reloaded (2003)
Meet the Fockers (2004)
Men in Black (1997)
Men in Black II (2002)
Mission: Impossible 2 (2000)
Monsters, Inc. (2001)
Mr. & Mrs. Smith (2005)
Mrs. Doubtfire (1993)
Mummy Returns (2001)
My Big Fat Greek Wedding (2002)
National Treasure: Book of Secrets (2007)
Night at the Museum (2006)
Passion of the Christ (2004)
Pearl Harbor (2001)
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End (2007)
Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest (2006)
Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (2003)
Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
Ratatouille (2007)
Rush Hour 2 (2001)
Saving Private Ryan (1998)
Shrek (2001)
Shrek 2 (2004)
Shrek the Third (2007)
Signs (2002)
Sixth Sense (1999)
Spider-Man (2002)
Spider-Man 2 (2004)
Spider-Man 3 (2007)
Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999)
Star Wars: Episode II - Attack of the Clones (2002)
Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith (2005)
Star Wars: Episode IV - A New Hope (1977)
Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
Star Wars: Episode VI - Return of the Jedi (1983)
Superman Returns (2006)
Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
Titanic (1997)
Toy Story (1995)
Toy Story 2 (1999)
Transformers (2007)
Twister (1996)
WALL·E (2008)
War of the Worlds (2005)
Wedding Crashers (2005)
X2: X-Men United (2003)
X-Men: The Last Stand (2006)
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and so this is christmas....
Dec. 24th, 2008 | 07:22 pm
so yeah.. its that festivetime of the year again...
well this year im on my tod.... so it will certainly be different for me.
yves is back in france with his rellies and everyone else i know up here is either away or at home...
so my christmas menu this year is rather random.. tonight i shall be eating scottish hot smoked mackrel with rice
tomorrow, i shall be having lamb.... mostly because being at work right up until lunchtime today i didnt get any time to get much in the way of shopping... and by the time i got to asgard there was absolutely nothing left as everyone was panic buying.. so one of the frozen bung-in-the-oven roasting joints will have to do... have veggies and potatoes and stuffing balls as well, so should be ok...
havent made a cake or anything.. but have some bread and butter pudding in the freezer...
i dont feel particularly festive this year.... theres a tree up which is lovely but that the only thing decorations wise thats up.. and that looks bare as there are only (of today) four things underneath.... my gifts for yves (as he refused to open his birthday pressie until he gets back) and his gift to me, which i know is warhammer related as it says on the packaging - but it arrived today which is goodly...
so yeah. tonight im settled in with robin hood prince of thieves and then after, hopefully there might be something on telly, and cds to burn to add to my mp3 collection as yves left me a bunch to listen to....
all that remains is to wish you a good day tomorrow, whatever you're doing wherever you are, and all the best for the year to come.
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a fab weekend..
Dec. 14th, 2008 | 12:19 pm
started on thursday.
found a really nice italian restaraunt in soshields, had a fab time, walking back via the frozen sands...
then last night, went out to amy and stu's for dinner before going down to the cluny to see Danny Vaughn.
all i can say is it was awesome....
nuff said.
found a really nice italian restaraunt in soshields, had a fab time, walking back via the frozen sands...
then last night, went out to amy and stu's for dinner before going down to the cluny to see Danny Vaughn.
all i can say is it was awesome....
nuff said.
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where have the last 9124 days gone?
Nov. 9th, 2008 | 11:01 am
so tomorrow i am 25.... and wondering where it went!
geek point for me,
tomorrow i will have travelled 23,635,804,687,200km just solely by existing upon the earth which is travelling through space...
aieeeee. to clarify i think... thats twenty three thousand six hundred and thirtyfive billion, eight hundred and four million, six hundred and eighty seven thousand, two hundred kilometres....
no wonder my feet hurt.!
geek point for me,
tomorrow i will have travelled 23,635,804,687,200km just solely by existing upon the earth which is travelling through space...
aieeeee. to clarify i think... thats twenty three thousand six hundred and thirtyfive billion, eight hundred and four million, six hundred and eighty seven thousand, two hundred kilometres....
no wonder my feet hurt.!